I re-watched one of my favorite episodes of Gilmore Girls this weekend. This is a screenshot of one of the best scenes in any series I’ve ever seen, because in this scene, you as an audience member are reminded that you too could be in the shoes of those Logan is talking about when he says to Rory, “It’s your choice, Ace. People can live a hundred years without really living for a minute. You climb up here with me, it’s one less minute you haven’t lived.”
I know I haven’t really lived every minute of my life, but I think those moments you really lived are the ones you retell with pride in your voice or shame. They’re the moments that you always remember, and even if they were a big mistake, you usually remember them fondly. Then there are the moments you wish you’d really lived, but you chickened out. Following are a few moments I want to live:
1. Finish a novel.
This may or may not be the novel I’m working on for NaNo, but it will be a novel made up of 100% my own words and at least 98% my ideas. The concept of the novel I’m working on was a combination of thoughts between me and my daughter. I think the fact that she helped come up with the concept is what’s going to make this the one I finish, because I want her to be proud of me, and by finishing a novel that we thought up together, I think it will help her confidence to finally write something that is not fan fiction or publish as you go.
2. Submit that novel to real publishers.
I think that submitting my novel to real publishers, it would be very similar to jumping off that platform. I am terrified of rejection, and I think it’s a big reason why I haven’t finished a novel. While my daughter publishes her novels online and accepts the criticism and acclaim that affords her with grace, I don’t know how I will react to the criticisms of editors and agents when I submit my novel.
3. Attend E3.
Going to E3 is one of the coolest things I have seen. To be able to attend an event that showcases the newest and coolest toys and games to be seen by the rest of the world in the years to come would be so awesome. This would go on a bucket list style list, but for me getting up the courage to attend an event like this given the odds of running in to one of my idols will actually take some living on my part.
4. Meet Gena Showalter.
Gena Showalter is my favorite author. I follow her on Facebook and Twitter, and read all her stuff, even her YA books. If she writes it, I read it. Meeting her would be terrifying as much as it would be exciting, because what do you say to the person who inspired you to follow your dreams and go after the fantasy most people believe is impossible?
5. Quit my day job.
This one is going to be the hardest one for me, which is probably why I put it at the end. For one thing, I kind of like my day job. It has many boring moments, but my coworkers are mostly pretty great, and I’ve got the best boss ever. Plus, this version of quit my day job isn’t a go into another job type of quitting. This is the quitting my day job in order to live off my skills as a writer, programmer, and/or jeweler.
These five things would definitely make me feel like I have lived each and every minute of these things. These are all things I really, really want to do, and I hope to do each and every one of them. The other thing about these goals is that all of them (except meeting GS) would help me be a better inspiration to my kids.
What moments of living are you looking forward to?